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Man question their existence all the time.

Its like driving a car on a deserted straight road. You step on the accelerator to the maximum speed that the car can drive at.. you feel the thrill.. do that for about an hour.. and going at 160km/h feels like nothing. Then u decide to drive slow, say at the speed limit of 110km/h. You enjoy the ride, noticing the increased comfort and lesser Tyre noise. Then u get bored and wonder when will you ever get to your destination. While u were dreading the drive, u notice maybe a car accident and u get all excited for that brief moment.. You talk about it; what might have caused it and whether anyone might have died.. then the moment is over and u continue to dread the drive.

To start, i have completely no idea why i am blogging and what do i have to blog about. (thats basically sums up all my posts).

Just as in am heavy in thought about what to type here, the Arsenal game started.. and i have been summon to go watch it..

I guess all i had to say to myself was, "Sam, this road trip of 6 months is over. During this 6 months you lost yourself driving towards what you thought was a destination. Along the way and while driving, you lost your focus and drive. You started to get delusional and lost that confidence that you thought you had to drive urself there. You lost your character that made u what you were and maybe thats why u started to doubt yourself. The day of reckoning has come. Its time to belive again."

Hmmm, maybe i will read this again when the Arsenal game is over and perhaps understand what i am talking about.